On any given day, I have about 5 BIG goals racing through my ADHD brain. I typically have the following daily goals of getting in shape, losing 10 lbs, writing a book, recording a new education video, staying 100% on top of my editing, booking a new wedding, and marketing my business (alone), all while keeping a tiny human alive, a husband happy, and getting three non-driving girls to a minimum of 3 different activities (all at the same time and usually in different counties).
You might think I'm being silly or exaggerating for blog purposes but you would be incorrect my friend. Those are literally things that stay on my mind, almost always.
Last year, and I mean as of two weeks ago not like last January, I was so motivated, too motivated, that I stayed a nervous wreck. Many days I would be in the middle of working on one thing, all the while, feeling completely anxious that I wasn't ready to move on to the next, and so on and so on.
This year I am so determined to get a grip.
I decided on January 1 - like 90% of mankind - that it was time to take better care of myself. I have been known to use my goals and children as excuses to not take care of myself. However, I had a long business meeting with myself and decided that my work goals could never become a reality if I mentally couldn't think straight for longer than 3 to 4 minutes. As a result, I started waking up at 5:00 and heading to the gym. Yep, 5:00 in the MORNING.
The other day I was doing my level best on the elliptical when I started the same ole' stuff - "You should probably be finishing that wedding. What if Katie needs you to braid her hair? You never did respond to that email from yesterday. You have 12 new messages on facebook. Crap Kelli, you didn't post anything on Pinterest all last month." The thoughts all race to the loud background noise of Nelly or Casting Crowns, just depends on the day.
I continued to move my hands back and forth, feet up and down - not smoothly like the girls in the fabletics leggings - awkwardly like an ex-athlete that gave birth, a lot.
Then it occurred to me, "You ARE doing it." Right now, you are moving toward one of those goals. You're moving in the right direction.
I often seem to think unless I get to the finish line of each of my goals, somewhat immediately, then I'm not reaching them. Instant gratification is my 'thang.
**Fun fact, when shopping with my friend Bethanie the clerk will always offer to order what we need and have it shipped for free directly to the house. She says yes, always. I have never had anything shipped from a store - ever. If I can't leave with it, I don't want it**
Back to the point, sometimes we can be right in the middle of moving towards a result we are wanting but can't see the progress because we're simply not finished yet. Sometimes we can't be satisfied that we ARE doing IT -whatever IT is - because we can't just be satisfied.
I want to lose 10 lbs - If I'm at the gym at 5 am, I AM DOING IT - it's just not done yet.
I want to make more money this year - If I'm adding weddings and content to my education videos, I AM DOING IT - it's just not done yet.
I want to spend more quality time with Tim this year - If I'm scheduling a date night next week, I AM DOING IT . . .Can you see where I'm going with this.
Maybe you think I'm nuts. Maybe you don't ever get frustrated that your goals aren't met or you aren't doing enough but maybe you are like me. Maybe you get it. Maybe you need to look at your own things and see that even though you're not done, you're not there yet, YOU ARE DOING IT too.